You know that i've waited all year for you

I came into this with no idea of what to write.
readysetgo, i suppose.


SO this past week has been kind of crazy. I drank a lot of rum, smoked a lot of hookah. Moved some people from the "acquaintance" to the "friend" column. Fun times.

I also got punched in the face by one of my best friends. And i keep making excuses and feeling stupid for being mad about it, even though i think i probably have every right to be mad. so that's been kind of tugging at the edges of my brain the past few days. and that's just made me really confused about a lot of things. so i took a closer look at a bunch of shit in my life, and made a bunch of realizations, and guess what? i decided i couldn't possibly know what love is, so i couldn't possibly be in love with anybody. so i'm feeling better about that now. but i still don't want him to leave in two weeks....

today i got so frustrated that i cried. i think that's happened to me maybe once before. it was ridiculous. i just straight up flipped shit because i couldn't put my goddamn bed together. what the fuck is that!? i think maybe it was just like a culmination of everything this week just hitting me all at once. lamesicles.

i just decided i'm going to break into the room across the hall and fucking trash this kid's sick speakers. i can't stand the walls vibrating anymore. fucing dick.

hmmmmmm what else.
oh i got promoted at work. finally. fuckin shit yo. so i'm super stoked about that. but super depressed that the service desk family's breaking up. i'm moving up front, fabian's leaving, chelsea's leaving soon, steven's leaving soon... :[ sad day.

i hung out with somebody and realized how much my life has changed over the past few years. like serious ups and downs. and i'm so happy with it now, it's ridiculous. i'm just finally settled. like i can have the shittiest day ever, and just go home and listen to a song and be okay with life again. i think dropping out of school, the first thing i've ever really done for ME, has been the greatest thing that's ever happened to me-- at least so far. we'll see, when in a couple of years i'm living in a box on colfax. but for now, i'm fucking high on life and i love it.

i think i know what i want for my next tattoo


indeed.